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[Nov. 15th, 2005|11:00 pm] |
i feel so weird.
everything i say is ridden with truth and rhyme.
therefore i demand respect. |
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| If only every day could feel like this |
[Jan. 21st, 2005|03:19 pm] |
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It feels strange to be writing again in THE JOURNAL. Especially when not much goes on in my life that is extremely exciting, but here goes.
Joe and his brother Jaime got in this morning around 3 am from their cross-country road trip. They left MD on Friday at 2pm and got here in about a day and a half. Needless to say they are asleep and probably will be for most of the day. I dont care though...i know its nauseating, but as long as every now and then i can jump in bed and cozy up to him i am more than fine...ofcourse just wait until like 5pm today and we'll see if i am singing the same tune.
I've got a lot of work to do this semester--not just school work. I have to figure somethings out...you know, you know, about myself. Try and better myself...like Jean Luc Picard says, that is the whole point of human existence...i want to evolve into someone more healthy, in mind and body, and therefore more happy (this is my theory). If anyone has any suggestions, please share them. I love feedback.
oh here is some news which i am sure will send you into an attack of de ja vu (spelling, anyone?), but i got on ipod for christmas. it made going home and not listening to my parents much easier!
Well, i am off to bed and to a nice, warm body which is my missing puzzle piece. |
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| Like No Other |
[Sep. 26th, 2004|09:22 pm] |
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This weekend was wonderful. Laura and I spent it doing random errands, and figuring out random things which made us very happy. Like what, you ask? Oh, weellllll, let me tell you alllll about it...
Friday was much fun! Went with jared and two of his friends ellie and allie to anahiem to see his friend's band play...we had great fun dancing outside, inside, wherever, and had a delicious meal at the House of blues restaurant. it was my first time to one of these chains. The band was very good, just not really my type of music, but they had alot of stage presence and was quite catchy.
Saturday Laura and i went to the beach, then gap, then target, then HOME! Once at home, made dinner (oooo spinach pie i love thee!) and then watched "Gentlemen Prefer Blondes" while we ate our delicacies. then had milkshake with all the roomies (ooo mint chocolate chip i love thee!) wit a ciggie, and then back to room. Laura and I had a nice little fleshy photoshoot, and if you are good little boys and girls i might post some up for you. no no, dont cry. theyre nice, i promise. next movie we watched was "Newsies"!!! Sooo much goodness in one little film. I just cant count the number of times i smile to myself or get shivers down my spine while watching it...soo many memories to that such well-done flicka.
Today Laura and I went to Ralph's and bought lots of food! Then I went to a yearbook meeting i had and stayed after for a few hours to work on my layouts. I am so glad that i am not procrastinating too much with this....i just wish we would start getting paid soon, good god. Then i came home and Emily and her bf had a bunch of their friends to watch the new DVDs of Star Wars...they are still going strong. I wish i could get into it...but for some reason today i feel like i have a million things to do but i am really ahead of classes, etc. but i still do have stuff to do, its just that i am not used to feeling bad about not doing it. cool. i guess.
I miss joe, but what is new? i miss my family, matt and gigi and mom, and little JT...he can recognize people now and call them by naame. I told my mom to make sure that he doesnt forget me...so she has to point at my picture and say "auntie sibby" over and over. I will barely recognize him in december...good god. i miss my girls and boys from back home too...it is nice to have alot of time here to be by myself and do stuff i need to do, but i miss that feeling of family and like roots, man. but then when i was home i missed the feeling of freshness and vibrancy here, like i was in the midst of everything and everybody, and i have met such an eclectic group of inspiring people that i would never give it up. Its just a conflict...as usual. ups and downs, highs and lows, love and hate, life and death...these are the extremes which take me on this excruciating yet thrilling roller coaster. sometimes i am filled with such hope, transcending all other feelings but pure beauty and joy, cutting through the air like the smell of honey suckles does in june...but mostly i just feel like i'm gonna vomit.
men grow cold
as girls grow old
and we all lose our charms in the end.
but square-faced or pear-shaped
these rocks dont lose their shape
Diamonds...
Diamonds....
I DONT MEAN RHINESTONES...
but DIAMONDS...
are a girl's best...
BEST FRIEND. |
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| Oh dear god NO! |
[Sep. 22nd, 2004|11:40 am] |
How is it possible...
to eat tofutti cuties for breakfast and feel better than you ever have at 9 Am?
to go to sleep at 9pm, wake up at 7am, and sleep again (very soundly) from 10am-12pm?
to eat a whole tub of the pulled BBQ chicken in one sitting?
to get so much pleasure in the performance of Bill Pullman in "Casper"?
to have the undergrads pages due in exactly one month?
to feel so absolutely hideous and repulsive when i know i can't be that bad, and i could be a whole lot worse?
to not buy any cigarettes for weeks but still smoke roughly five per day?
to have such a desire for success and energy, but just not have the will power for it?
to end this? |
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| I love lamp! |
[Sep. 20th, 2004|12:53 am] |
This weekend was fantastic. Joe spontaneously came into town Friday night, and he left Sunday afternoon, so i had the whole weekend with my wonderful J-O-O.
On Saturday we all went to Laura's step-dad's 50th birthday party, and since we got there early I was able to film my very first project for Film 260. Laura and her friend Erin were in it, along with Charles' turtle, Myrtle. We had so much fun doing it, and i had been so worried about it, it made me think (for the zillionth time) that worrying is not worth the trouble. My dad has been saying this for years, but YOU make your experiences either good or bad. I know it sounds like such a corny line, but it's one of those cliches you cant hear someone else say, you can only feel its truth through your own head. I am starting to apply this to all things in my life, and I am slowly but surely working out of my neurotic tendencies. finally.
You know it is love when: (non-platonic AND platonic)
1. you can excrete digestive gases around eachother (notice this is number one bc it is a high priority for me)(better out than in, my Gigi always says)
2. you can make boat whistle sounds with a glass bottle for about an hour and think it is the best thing in the world, eventually creating your own tugboat whistle language
3. you can make them watch a movie that you absolutley love, but isnt really their thing, and they get all into it and ask questions, make comments, etc.
4. you can talk about sex and body parts all the time and not get embarassed
5. you can lock them out of their room at any time and they just chill and give you a thumbs up sign (thanks Millie, dahling)
6. Last but not least...you can tell that they love you back.
Goodnight, my little puppets.
Sleep well and dream of dancing in the falling leaves, painted with various shades of red and orange, while the bite of the autumn air is kept at bay by an oversized, fluffy sweater.
I know i will. |
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| I LOVE DARK CHOCOLATE |
[Sep. 16th, 2004|04:11 pm] |
hey kids...finally got off my ass and over to Laura's computer to update...and you wanna know what inspired me to do this? DARK CHOCOLATE. yes m'dears, i have found the fountain of youth, or atleast energy and the love of live and key to happiness and self-actualization...DARK CHOCOLATE. Its like, i dont care if i get fat, it helps me quit smoking and we are having a wonderful time together...an affair to remember shall we say.
Some words from Adam Duritz, aka GOD/THE MESSIAH/HOLIEST OF HOLIES which made me smile and feel like a cool breeze had just blown through my excrutiatingly hot and lonely dorm room:
08.14.04 - New York, NY 2:42 A.M.
My friend Emily is so cool. Oh my god, she is so cool. Ubercool. She's cool
like lemonade. She's as cool as the other side of the pillow. I was talking
to her tonight and it occurred to me that, holy fuck, she is so cool. She is
so cool that her mom is cool. That's how cool she is. You only wish you
could be this cool. I only wish I could be this cool.
You know who else is cool. My Ladybug is cool. I never get to see her but
she really is pretty cool. I dig her. Emily says, " She has nice teeth". She
makes Emily wish she had braces when she was younger. But I think Em has
nice teeth too. Mostly, people don't think enough of themselves. It's a
shame.
Does this seem like a goofy post. It is probably. But even if it seems like
it, don't say it does. I'd appreciate it.
---I would love to be someone's Emily...or Maria...or Anna...or ladybug...or little weasel.----
I know it is pathetic that i havent updated in like a month and i talk about dark chocolate and someone else's journal who i have never met, but i am pathetic...apathetic...and sympathetic for those who are reading this.
class time. |
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| Goodbye Yellowbrick Road |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|01:18 pm] |
Well, I am officially not a resident of Frederick, MD anymore. I mean, last year I still kindof was, because my room certainly was no "home", but I feel this year will be much different. It excites me. Right now I am actually in limbo because we havent moved in yet, but soon...soon.
I just want to run you through the past few days of packing, crying, and saying goodbye. Thursday night Trashley, Corinne, and Kelleen and myself went to Bethesda to get something to eat and see "Garden State": AMAZING. that is all i am going to say right now about it. Then we went back to Trash's house in Urbana and started drinking our Corona Lights with limes, and eventually Laura Brewer came over, and Jessica too. ANd ofcourse, a party isnt a party without boys, so we invited Mike Casagrande, Matt, Joe Baldi and some of their friends over. THen all the girls invited their boyfreinds over, so Joe came with his friend Sean. At one point in the evening, I got pulled aside by Joe Baldi and he says, "We need to talk." so we went outside onto the front stoop and he asked me why I ignored him this summer, and I kindof lied and said i heard he had a girlfriend and moved on. It was actually that I met Joe S, moved on, and then heard he had a girlfriend (which he doesnt). Once he denied all that, he goes into how he had so much fun over winter break, and how he knew i was sooo different, and he was ready for the summer to be awesome, yada yada. THen he goes into this story about how over winter break i had just pulled him into the bathroom and kissed him, and thats when he knew i was something special...and I was like, wow i dont remember that...but it sounds like something i could do, right? Anywoo, i was just like, well, you saw my boyfriend in there, and maybe things might have worked out, but they didnt so...and then he leans in to kiss me and i pushed him away and was like, no. It was like a fuckin movie...that shit never happens to me...but it gets worse. Just after i denied him, while he still had his arm rubbing my back and we were sitting very close, Joe (my Joe) opens the front door and just stares and goes" Oh...umm...oh..ok" and i was just like "FUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkk" in my head, but i said "we are just talking ill be in in a minute" and he goes inside. so i say goodbye to Joe B and go find Joe S and ofcourse we have a talk, which really opened u p alot...I didnt realize he cared for me as much as he did till then. He said he is just scared of getting hurt again, and that he is a very jealous person. Hmmm, that is pretty much EXACTLY what had been on my mind the past few weeks. SO we got alot of things out in the open, i explained the Joe Baldi situation and then we went upstairs ;)
when i looked at my phone before we went upstairs joe baldi had left me a text message which read "i would treat you nicer than that other joe" and i was like, i think not. so i showed it to Joe s and (jokingly) siad that he better treat me descent...but then i jumped him and said he treated me better than "nicer" even, because he does.
SO things are good now.
Friday night we all went over to Joe Kline's house to say goodbye to me and Glen because he is leaving for Pitt today. and, i swear this is the last comment about Joe, he knows three of my favorite words together are "nice, red, wine" so he bought me a 15 dollar bottle of merlot...and i didnt even drink it all because i can control myself now (i know you dont beleive me but it tis true).
I am gonna miss everyone from Frederick so badly. They are my family, and it is hard to break away from your family, whether you are related to them by blood or not. But it is necessary, and i feel alot more prepared and in a much better place to go and make myself, on my own, independently. God damn, it might be hard, but i know it will be fun too.
ok, so just want to add one more person to the Siobhan's Strange Obsession with Brilliant and Attractive Jewish Men List:
- ZACH BRAFF...i love him...i love him...and you will too...trust me.
-----goin to california with an achin in my heart-------- |
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| Gumption is a Good Word |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|08:59 am] |
Things have been pretty eventful, but not really the kind of stuff i feel comfortable writing in my livejournal, but i will summarize it briefly.
Everyone is starting to leave dear old Frederick, and it is quite depressing, considering that this was probably the last summer the whole gang could be together. Yet change is necessary, as I have mentioned previously, and I am ready. An interesting thing happened, though, Friday night when I came to say goodbye to Adam since he was leaving for school in the morning. He was very drunk, and when i came to hug him goodbye, he was like, "i wanna tell you something, but you know what i am talking about," I was like, "why dont you whisper it in my ear" so he does. basically he says that me and him should have gotten together this summer, but timing was bad. Just my luck, huh? In the beginning of the summer I had the biggest crush on him, but nooooo he had his 16 year old girlfriend. Now when I get a good, pleasing boyfriend he has to go around and tell me this (and Joe was only sitting a few seats away). Too bad so sad...i'm over it. But it made me realize that I am mostly attracted to good Jewish boys. Here is a list of those whom I have fallen for in my life which fits this description:
1. Adam Duritz
2. Joe Sonnefeld
3. Adam Weinstein
4. Adam Grosshandler
5. Josh Silverberg
6. Josh Wattoff
7. Michael Schuman
8. JARED! (yes, dear, i am still attracted to you....heavy sigh)
I guess it doesnt seem like too long of a list, but i was like very obsessed with some of those guys..."it's quality, not quantity, man"
On Sunday Joe, his friend Sean, and myself drove up to Dover, Delaware to go see Peter Frampton, Creedence Clearwater Revival (or is it Revisited? Ah fuck it), and Crosby, Stills and Nash. It was awesome. Bo Diddly and Blood Sweat and Tears were there too, but we were out in the parking lot, so we only heard them. That was pretty much an all day affair, so when it was all over we got something to eat, and drove to Salisbury, mD to party with Joe's friend Steve at his friends house. It was a quaint little get together, and i got a bed to sleep in and a nice clean bathroom to pee in, so I was happy. The next day we got up nice and early and drove to Ocean City, MD, and went to this hotel where we used the pool and the bathrooms. then we lied out on the beach for awhile, and then went to lunch at Philips, which wasnt so terrific. then we went to the boardwalk where we met up with steve and just walked and talked, and then we tried to get free crabs at Higgins, but it didnt work, so we got sandwhiches from WAWA and came back home.
Now I have so much shit to do before I go back home it isnt even funny. But i cant wait! I cant wait til we are all moved in and settled, and classes start, and good times. But for now, i must go, and pack pack pack. |
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| Happiness is.... |
[Aug. 8th, 2004|11:35 am] |
-working everything out with my best friends from home and feeling like our friendships are stronger than before.
-discussing "the terrible situations in chechnya" with Jessica and my mom.
-finding a pair of jeans that fits!
-Nancy Drew books that are two bucks a piece
-shopping with Laura Beliz and Glenmont in Fells Point
-saying goodbye to Laura and realizing that I will be seeing her again in only about two weeks
-the fact that i will be living in LA soon with some of the coolest people ever and not in Frederick with my father.
-the fact that I only have to do one more day of community service and I am done with the whole goddamn "serving my time" thing!!!
-spending time with Mattina, my brother...what a crazy queen.
-watching my mother fall over in her chair and struggle to get out while my 85 year old grandma chases and screams at our dog Randall, who stole my 18 month old nephew's shoe right off his foot...and the child just stands in his barefeet and laughs.
-knowing that somebody thinks that I am a "keeper" enough to tell other people.
Things have been going pretty well...but there are always things it seems which happen to keep everytthing on an even keel...no one can be too happy i have realized. it just isnt healthy. But it is terrific that now I feel like i can get up every morning, take a shower, and interact normally with people (for the most part). It is great to have the energy to do that again, because it has been a long time coming. and i cant wait to be on my own again and prove that i CAN and WILL live on my own and take care of myself. alot of things have changed...and, no, we no longer fear it. |
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| Bonfire, Beer and Beliz |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|05:02 pm] |
Last night Glen had another bonfire and it was a good time. I had a nice long serious conversation with my friend Adam about relationships, school, and the future. It was really nice because i havent ever really talked like that with him before...i mean he was a little drunk, but he wasnt beligerent yet, so it was different.
Joe came to the bonfire too...and we actually had a serious conversation last night. Or the beginning of one...he said we should finish it when we both weren't drunk, tired, and post-sex overly emotional. I concurred. I just hope he remembers...because i am worried that i have much more emotionally at stake here, and that scares me. You know it's bad when you are with some one who has things about them that just annoy the piss out of you, but it doesnt matter at all...when he looks at me sometimes....it's just that look, ya know? no words need to be said, but sometimes thats nice too...to talk. and we havent done too much of that...besides about the normal "getting-to-know-you bullshit." things are starting, and i just hope no one gets hurt...because in these types of situations it is usually the one who is more attached (which would be me in this case) who gets hurt the most. and i dont know if i have the strength. afterall, women tend to fall in love with men that dont love them. it is so classic.
well, corinne just showed up with her little sister and her friend to go swimming, so we better go entertain them.
PS- i am so excited about going back to school....i cant wait to see my future roomies again...and everyone else ofcourse. |
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| Laura By My Side |
[Jul. 26th, 2004|08:05 pm] |
My darling Laura is visiting....and we are having a great time, i must say, now that we have the whole "police record" thing behind us.
She got in saturday night, but that day i had gone to a family reunion with my dad so i was a little frazzled when i picked her up. But everything was ok since i finally had laura by my side again. We drove to my grandma's from the airport and spent that night and most of the next day there with my nephew.
Last night after we got home Joe S came over, and this is what Laura has to say about meeting him:
Joe. JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOE! He's a very cute, very sweet young lad, and he LIKES Siobhan a lot from what I could tell. This is good.
Oh my articulate little panamanian.
ok, so he came over, then Jess came home with Kel and Corinne, and we all squeezed into the car and went to Brennan's house, which was alot of fun.
Today I had my photography class and laura hung out with glen. now we are about to watch a movie since tomorrow i have to start my ten hour a day community service cleaning toilets as my old high school. revenge is sweet, eh god? |
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| A Shot in the Ass is worth two in the...Bush??? |
[Jul. 20th, 2004|08:58 pm] |
SO today I got that birth control shot that you only have to get every three months...it was the first time i ever got a shot in my ass. i love such new experiences. and then i came home and slept a ridiculous amount. augh.
I have decided to detox-ify myself...i feel soooo toxic and gross. i am thinking that maybe that is why i never have ANY energy, since every other option has been crossed off the list. you would think we would have found out what is wrong with me by now, but no. i hope it isnt just that i am a lazy person, who would rather eat and make love with other's faces than work and better myself as a person. but i have the desire, i just do not have the energy.
we went to NYC this weekend...me, Joe S., Rachel, Matt, and my mom. I had a really nice time...it was the first time i walked around NY with a guy who wasnt my brother...i remember always being jealous of all the couples i saw and their annoying PDA...this weekend I was the one to be jealous of! My mom got two hotel rooms at the marriott in the financial district, and rachel was a great third wheel because she was always entertaining, and conveniently decided to take an hour walk around the hotel at 2 in the morning so that Joe and I could be alone for awhile. Overall, it was a great trip to NY, eventhough we mainly just went shopping and ate...but it was alot of fun anyways.
My father is watching The Last of the Mohicans, and it is calling me...alas, i almost feel like i am cheating on you laura if i watch it without you abd rex there to spoon with.
Last but not least--COUNTING CROWS tomorrow!!! |
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| ooo Chocolate!! Eh, that's going straight to my thighs! |
[Jul. 11th, 2004|09:02 pm] |
So i had my court date...ended up pretty well. seeing as i do not want to dwell on it, i will just cover it briefly. I got 32 hours community service, i have to take on more class, go to this panel of speakers, had to pay 400 dollars, and am on unsupervised probation for 18 months. YEAH!
I think everyone should go see ANchorman, and not just to see HOT JORDAN (#2)...i laughed my ass off.
Happy Birthday to GIGI who turns 85 today!!! You go girl!
alot of times during the day i ask the question (to no one in particular) "what the fuck is wrong with me?"
i have every reason to be happy and work hard to make myself better, and i have the desire, but i dont have the strength or ambition, or whatever...i dont get it...it's like i no longer have the capacity to be happy. that's pretty shitty, i know. i have happy moments, but i string myself from one happy moment to the next, and when i get a down moment i start thinking...and i realize that the only thing keeping me from being satisfied and content is myself...because i SHOULD be fuckin happy but i am NOT.
the next happy moment i am truly looking forward to (besides my Frederick friends and Joe): LAURA BELIZ!!!!! I keep listening to "Across the Sea" by weezer, and eventhough it doesnt really fit, it does in a way. God laura i miss you soooo bad....you are really my soulmate...i cant explain it any other way...i dont think i can ever live so long without seeing you again. i keep thinking about our little jokes and good times, and try explaingn them to people, but they dont get it...so i just sit and laugh to myself. I am so excited to see you!! Anyways....
that is all that is up with me! Love you all! |
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| Let 'Em Laugh in My Face I Don't Care |
[Jul. 3rd, 2004|06:23 pm] |
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Oh the tangled webs we weave when first we practice to deceive.
So last night I told my other that I was going over to Joe Kline's house and then spending the night at Corinne's house...
what i REALLY did was go to a party at Katie Coliier's house and spent the night at Joe Sonnefeld's house. Needless to say, Joe and I were up pretty late, and so i slept in kinda late. And personally, I know this sounds so corny and cliche, but I wanted to postpone getting up as long as possible because I did not want to leave and not have him there any more...every time I kiss him I feel like it will be the last time, so I didn't want it to end. I am afraid that he will get tired of me and my problems, just like everyone else, or i will distance myself and drive him away...but either way, i am just afraid he will leave...that he will decide that i am NOT worth all the effort, and I'll be alone again. Seriously, even when i simply play with his hair or we have a good laugh, I make myself take a moment to store it in my memory in order to remember what it is like to be with someone who wants to be with me later on. Each time i see him i am afraid it will be the last...i am the poster child for "insecurity."
Well, as i was saying, before i so rudely interupted myself, i stayed alot later at Joe's than i thought i would. AND my cell phone died. So my mom was trying to get a hold of me, and my friends were trying to cover for me, but i just ended up calling my mom and telling her the truth. I thought I was gonna be in major trouble, but she just told me not to lie any more, and that she would have some qualms in the future about trusting me. She even created this elaborate story about dogsitting and breakfast at Corinne's to tell my dad, which was nice of her.
My father had the Youth Group from my old church over today for a pool party, and i saw alot of old church friends...Pastor Paul loved the piercings and tattoos. We had a terrific talk about politics, and i was the only liberal person, but Paul Kissen would be proud, because i made some valid points and stood up for myself. They were all so fake to me, and I know that they are just going to talk about me later about how I have backslidden so much, and poor Jim, with his wayward family. But really Jim is the one who is to blame (IF we are gonna point fingers) for the utter deterioration of our family.
I'm not bitter.
I'm better.
OR atleast...
THINGS ARE GETTING WORSE BUT I FEEL ALOT BETTER. |
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| Hello My Little Puppets |
[Jun. 29th, 2004|11:06 am] |
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Things are going pretty well since getting back from the Jersey Shore.
I am still twidderpated with this Joe character...he is just so goddamn cute--and unusual, which I love. I am working on my issues, which is a slow process, but he doesn't seem to mind...and this makes me happy.
All my alcohol and drug classes are done! (that is ofcourse unless I am assigned more classes to take by the court...which is next week by the by, and my nerves are growing more on edge everyday)
I have been feeling pretty good mentally, but then it always has been up and down. But...and you all my have a hard time believing this...but i have been completely sober (absolutely NOTHING) for about a month. I am not saying this to pass judgment or anything, but for me, it was the best thing. I am more susceptible to bad habits, so I just can't even let myself enjoy some of the "finer" things in life. But it's ok...i am actually really happy about it and feeling good.
Rachel Brook is coming into town this Saturday! I am gonna have to show her the town, which is ALWAYS an adventure!
LAURA BELIZ is going to be able to visit Frederick, Maryland this summer!!!! I am soooo excited! AND, i am soooo excited that things are going so well with her also! It's been a rough year for us, Milly dahling, but we survived...and we are so much stronger...things are looking up (and it is about fuckin time!!!)
(but ofcourse if things all go horribly wrong, we ALWAYS have eachother!!)
My dad left me a paper by the computer with a few of his self-proclaimed "Haganisms" typed up in a large font and italics, with his John Hancock at the bottom...he has moved from an ignorant asshole to pathetically cute:
"Experience is when you learn from your mistakes and do not repeat them"
"Wisdom is when you learn from other's mistakes and do not repeat them"
"Excellence is taking action with your experience and wisdom by applying both to your life"
He has also taken to riding his mountain bike to Rita's Italian ice, which is about twenty miles away, just to have his favorite: rasberry with chocolate gelati (yes he owns two buicks and a truck)...and he is also now BEST FRIENDS with my dog...remember their little spt in the beginning of the summer? Well, they are inseperable now, making me realize how similar their personalities are: they are really moody, and one minute will be sweet and cuddly, and the next attacking your whole person. They are both really smart when it comes to certain things, like hooking up the new TV or getting a piece of bacon to fall off the table, but then they are completely lacking in other areas, like when arguing over religion/George W. Bush or chasing a tennis ball that i only pretended to throw. And i love them both, i have decided, although one is alot cuter and easier to get close to than the other...but that is just the way they are, and you can't change people, only they way you think and feel about them (man, we could add that to the growing list of "Haganisms").
Just got a call from Jessica...the shit hath hitteth the fan at her grandparent's house. She asked me while i was at the beach if she could take us up on the offer for her to live with us, and I said Sure. Today she is moving all her stuff in because apparently there was a big fight, but I am not sure on the details. I feel so bad for Jess...i thought I had bad luck, but it is no where near her life story.
But i am in a way glad because I wont be alone anymore with the "Bobbsey Twins" biting at my ankles (and my sanity).
Wow, I started this update thinking, "I really don't have much to say." I was very wrong. One last thing...if you could all please submit a few song suggestions for a new mix i am making. It will basically consist of songs that were played at Blue Monday, or should have been. So far i have:
One Way or Another- Blondie
The Metro-Berlin
Blister in the Sun-Violent Femmes
I know What Boys Like-The Waitresses
Rock Lobster-B52's
Boys Don't Cry-The Cure
and inlcude any other song that you think i would enjoy! Thanks all and much love! |
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| Siobhan fragrance |
[Jun. 18th, 2004|07:15 am] |
P.S. ( in the words of Kelleen):
he says i smell good...
that it is a "Siobhan" smell.
that i should bottle it and sell it.
Oh Lord. |
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| What's In a Number? |
[Jun. 18th, 2004|07:07 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tired of Sex...???? | ] |
SO yeah....
number six.
this time was much different...i just hope it isn't all in my head.
or that i fuck it up because of all the things fucked up in my head.
oh god, I really like this guy.
wish me luck guys. |
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| I've Been Up All Night...Prolly Sleep All Day |
[Jun. 17th, 2004|09:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | enthralled | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Way You Make Me Feel...oh JAcko i cant stoppo | ] |
well. well.
what is new, you ask? here goes...
* Daddio boought a 65 inch widescreen TV
* wearing heart monitor for 24 hours...then hopefully i will never have to talk about my goddamn heart problems again!
* saw The Notebook...well, AT LEAST the soundtrack is good.
* saw SAVED! and almost cried several times, being overwhelmed with nostalgia for the days of my youth...oh maybe it wasn't nostalgia...what is that other "n" word...oh, i know! NAUSEA!!!
-good movie though...even amidst the putrescence of my memories of my former close-minded lifestyle.
* Joe Kline and I have a production meeting today at 3 pm to discuss our upcoming documentary (topic=like Laura Beliz's major...undecided)
* finished one of my alcohol classes last night!
* (best for last) had terrific night with boy from movie theater (mentioned in previous entries) last night/this morning...didnt get home until 5 am and had to wake up at 7...but i am on cloud nine still...for reals man. Joe Sonnefeld...i finally remembered his last name...want a mental picture? looks like edward norton (hell yes) with slightly curlier hair (which i love to run my fingers through). ANd TayTay, you will adore him--he is a HUGE David Lynch fan! oh geez...i dont mind cheating on adam with this one, guys. |
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[Jun. 15th, 2004|10:27 am] |
| How to make a ms_gypsy |
Ingredients:
5 parts anger
1 part courage
1 part ego |
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of caring and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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| You Are Not Alone |
[Jun. 15th, 2004|09:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | You Rock My World....god i love Michael. | ] |
Well, I finally feel like my life is resembling something of worth. I started my photography class, and I am having so much fun with it...I forgot how much I loved it. Yesterday I was in the darkroom for almost four hours straight...and time totally flew. It was great.
The social aspect of my life is going well also. Trashley's grandparents were out of town this weekend, so Saturday she had a lil shindig, with the boy toy brigade and the JAACKS. We went skinny dipping, but Adam was the only boy who did. That was interesting. Ofcourse there was drama, as always, involving pot being stolen from Paul's pants and unwanted spooning partners.
Last night Trevor had a boy-becue, which was real chill and the food was good. Dylan always seems to be the fucked up one...like at every function. and i see him about every other day, on the average. Amazing.
So i miss Laura. It is ok when I can talk to her, and keep in touch, ya know? But when she is gone completely and i have no idea what she is doing it is pretty bad.
I am also worried about my dear girl Chelsea out there in SAn Fran...I wish i could give her some words of comfort, but these things happen. IT sucks, but they do happen. And she is a strong person, and has always inspired me, so I know she'll get through...it's just real tough.
My heart is as black as my short straight locks, and as cold as the sterling silver I pierce through my skin. |
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